zero to one

zero to one.

in the eyes of others seems to be a numerical value.

but this has been particularly meaningful for me.



in the rest of the year

we laughed. we hunted food. we gained weight. we talked.
we cried. we argued. we travelled. we loved. 

i have never regretted to have you in my life.

 

grateful .

thankful.

for everything.

the surprises, the bouquet, the time devoted, give and love unconditionally. 

and you.

honestly,

the feeling of being pampered is soooo good HAHA!

i love you.

27.10.2017

celebration

as titled

i used to be an anti-celebration person

it might affected by family's tradition

not saying totally NO to celebrate for any occasion

but thing go simple as possible

a meal. a wish. a card. a slice of cake.

better not to grand celebration

all of these are like what i usually did huh XD



still

there is some time i'm hoping for special treat from someone i cared so much

tbh i was feeling quite down in a bit on ma b'day this year

like imagining self being pampered all day long

being treated like a queen

created a memorized day to remember anytime

its fine for me though

and i totally meant it



it seem confused to say i not care but still disappointed for absence

somehow it might be a little different case for b'day

we didn't get to celebrate since childhood

we didn't get wishes from family member

maybe this is the reason make me always look for something on every b'day




okay

i was just craving for cake now

goodnight, xoxo

需要人陪

我不知道爲什麽23歲的自己會在需要人陪這一點執著

聽起來很天真

一年前，不知道啥毀萌生這個念頭

在火車第一次把那段時間心裏壓力通通攤開

一直一個人搭飛機飛來飛去

每一次踏進gate的那一刻最艱難

我會强迫自己不回頭

很像一回頭就會哭

也不知道在哭什麽

好像要離開熟悉的地方

回到冷冰冰的城市

就開始怨恨自己當初的選擇

只要過了那道門就沒事了

上飛機吃飛機餐睡一覺夢醒了

另一個自己也醒了

又回到現實

過著外地人的生活

難道真的是經歷越多離別就越敏感

最近的自己不管對大中小的離別都會非常非常非常非常難過

很抗拒離別的感覺

卡卡曾經説過一樣的話

我們其實都是一個人

或許久了就會無感

自己也會開始變得冷漠

我相信我也還只是經歷還不夠多次

一年后的我又何必這麽執著

需要人陪。

慧圓

哈哈
對！
就是你！

不意外，考試前的我總是會做一些莫名其妙的事情
我就突然想講講 慧 圓 這個人
不知道爲啥鷄皮疙塔都站起來了

我們倆的緣分是莫名其妙建立起來的
從偶爾放學會在樓梯口見面打招呼
我們真的是非常寫實的hi bye friend
直到我被清大錄取
唯一幾個同届的同鄉人在新竹
最熟的也只有她

想當初我被錄取最興奮的人好像也是她 XDD
自從她畢業離開新竹后
我似乎可以理解她的感受了
現在只要有任何一個同届或不熟的朋友來新竹
我都會變得超級無敵熱情非常好客

不記得從什麽時候開始
我被她影響很深
我們互相欣賞著對方的優點
互相覺得對方隨時都是大忙人一個
互相開始random約會
互相性格很相像

我一直很崇拜她表面上很獨立 ，很outgoing很sociable，很有想法，有目標，
事實上她是個很宅很膽小内心很弱很大剌剌...的一個人

她崇拜我行動力很高，就這樣？
我覺得還有更多吧
哈哈哈

只能說，她這幾年在我生命裏的另一個重要角色就是當我的範例
無論做什麽事情都好



待續........


  

be good to yourself

no one will appreciate 

whatever u've done. 

save it for yourself. 

i thought u r the special one

different among them 

have your own thoughts 

but y'll r just the same 

fuck. 

到最后還不是只有一張嘴 

用一種形狀來形容自己

人資課期末口頭面試問題：你會用哪一種形狀來形容自己

面試當下，回答得普普
自己感覺回答得很牽强

想了很久，仍然選擇圓型


Chasing my tail
Chasing perfection 
Create the perfect circle 
Create harmony
Keep it moving 
Keep rolling on 
A ring is round 
It has no end
Everything is connected
And will eventually come full circle


Keep rolling on, no matter how hard, how far.
I believe in faith.
I will always get what I want what I desire for.
I am not into wealth but health.
I am a harmonizer.
Helping others seem to cheer me up.
One of my ideal job on my thirties.
But financial support is the top consideration upon that.
Wealth seems to become much more important to me than I thought.
Chasing my dreams while I have lots of 'em.
I have so much to achieve my goals.
But, after all, a lovely family mean the most to me.

m e s s

最近的腦袋、身體

生理、心理

一團亂

累

卻不知道累在哪

是説一個自己默默付出了很多

卻換來得不到一丁點的肯定

說實在我還是會一肚子火

我肚量真的不大

我承認自己很多時候都沒盡到責任

背後有多少人在罵我

我一點都不在乎

一個團體需要大家的合作、配合才算得上一個團體

兩個不同的團體

大家有各自的方向、考量

我瞭解那些大場面需要更多人才(?)

一個原本有4個負責人的吃力活動

最後剩下半個負責人

我也只能認了

又是一個要自己包辦的節奏

最後看到的成績

不是最top 

可是看見新生們很投入

其實我自己就心滿意足了

如果最後我沒去拉一把

我也不敢想象結果會是如何

我也只是自私的怕被人指指點點

既然在我的能力範圍内 

我一定還是會出手

可能到這你會有很多問號？？？？

爲什麽一早不分配給那4個人就好呢

錯就錯在我就是那個傻傻

傻傻的放手讓他們去

傻傻的讓他們把重心完全轉移到另一頭

傻傻的幫他們撐著場面

傻傻的還要被人嗆

傻傻的活動結束還要嬉皮笑臉的跟他們說謝謝

一切錯誤出自于

這兩個團體是分不開的吧