i have no idea
when i began to emotionally controlled by a person
which i know i should not care much.
stop overthinking.
he is not giving me a fuck about anything i did.
that's all.
end of the story.
Friday, 29 July 2016
Wednesday, 13 July 2016
Chapter 1 2016
First of all, my mind is totally complicated now.
I chose to write a THROWBACK SEMESTER.
It was the 4th sem in NTHU, i gained a lot, spent a lot, planned a lot, lost a lot, cried a lot, laughed(?) a lot...idk
I used to be a very very cheerful girl, knew it from my mum.
But i started to keep everything to myself, innerself.
okay..back to my throwback sem started from winter break.
Went back to my lovely hometown, Penang!
Thing changed a little... a least in my life.
He walked into my life secretly.
I felt a little excited to go back to uni, i swear this was first time ever, since this was also the first time don't need to grab a cab back to uni, and its cost me a lot!!!!
Fine.
4th sem, I went through the least credit hours in my life so far, and of course took part in lot of activities.
Had a great trip with NTHU MSA to tainan.
Experienced Kaoshiung and Tainan trip once again with 2 besties in TW.
Followed by few days friendly matches with NCTU MSA.
And OCSA sports competition.
We won first prize in badminton! yay..a lot of efforts paid to achieve this
Then, NTHU International Week.
From cooking, selling tickets, exhibitions...and him as the president of the event.
I knew quite a bit about all of those unpleasant stuff.
Gave my opinions...but sooner or later, I felt there were another one who was overtaking my place.
idk..
Went to huiyuan's graduation exhibition.
Stayed over at cousin's place for first time.
Visited CLBWO and Mr.Woon can recognized me. TT
Later on with Penghu's trip with OCSA. alright this trip was just one of my biggest mistake in this sem.
Yeaaaah...Seems overwhelming.
But this sem was a disaster for me.
Luckily, there was 2 friends stayed next to me are very kind.
They brought me a lot of laughter.
I can never forgot about how we threw garbage from 5th floor, rear 2 mouse in dorm, cooking in the middle of night, baking at night, scolding others.........
Experienced too much in this sem.
Like for the first time, I planned, a trip for 40 persons and 3 persons.
I organized the matches for the first time.
I successfully brought back frisbee to the others.
I started to play volleyball.
I involved in winning badminton match.
I cooked Hainanese Chicken Rice for first time and it had a great review and feedback.
I tried out how the feeling of being cheated like a fool.
I found out how importantly MSA is...especially when people not from your own country are involved.
I truly appreciated MSA seniors gave me a warm, homed-felt and a lot of fun in the 2 days penghu's trip.
I really miss those seniors.
Now.
Right now.
How i wish they could just stay for a few months longer.
It was them who taught me to be kind to everyone.
The coming semester is another challenge for me.
A new challenge.
Pray for me.
goodnight. xoxo
I chose to write a THROWBACK SEMESTER.
It was the 4th sem in NTHU, i gained a lot, spent a lot, planned a lot, lost a lot, cried a lot, laughed(?) a lot...idk
I used to be a very very cheerful girl, knew it from my mum.
But i started to keep everything to myself, innerself.
okay..back to my throwback sem started from winter break.
Went back to my lovely hometown, Penang!
Thing changed a little... a least in my life.
He walked into my life secretly.
I felt a little excited to go back to uni, i swear this was first time ever, since this was also the first time don't need to grab a cab back to uni, and its cost me a lot!!!!
Fine.
4th sem, I went through the least credit hours in my life so far, and of course took part in lot of activities.
Had a great trip with NTHU MSA to tainan.
Experienced Kaoshiung and Tainan trip once again with 2 besties in TW.
Followed by few days friendly matches with NCTU MSA.
And OCSA sports competition.
We won first prize in badminton! yay..a lot of efforts paid to achieve this
Then, NTHU International Week.
From cooking, selling tickets, exhibitions...and him as the president of the event.
I knew quite a bit about all of those unpleasant stuff.
Gave my opinions...but sooner or later, I felt there were another one who was overtaking my place.
idk..
Went to huiyuan's graduation exhibition.
Stayed over at cousin's place for first time.
Visited CLBWO and Mr.Woon can recognized me. TT
Later on with Penghu's trip with OCSA. alright this trip was just one of my biggest mistake in this sem.
Yeaaaah...Seems overwhelming.
But this sem was a disaster for me.
Luckily, there was 2 friends stayed next to me are very kind.
They brought me a lot of laughter.
I can never forgot about how we threw garbage from 5th floor, rear 2 mouse in dorm, cooking in the middle of night, baking at night, scolding others.........
Experienced too much in this sem.
Like for the first time, I planned, a trip for 40 persons and 3 persons.
I organized the matches for the first time.
I successfully brought back frisbee to the others.
I started to play volleyball.
I involved in winning badminton match.
I cooked Hainanese Chicken Rice for first time and it had a great review and feedback.
I tried out how the feeling of being cheated like a fool.
I found out how importantly MSA is...especially when people not from your own country are involved.
I truly appreciated MSA seniors gave me a warm, homed-felt and a lot of fun in the 2 days penghu's trip.
I really miss those seniors.
Now.
Right now.
How i wish they could just stay for a few months longer.
It was them who taught me to be kind to everyone.
The coming semester is another challenge for me.
A new challenge.
Pray for me.
goodnight. xoxo
Chapter 1 2015
不懂哪來的動力，讓我從新想寫部落格。
已經停了那麽多年。。。
我想。。。可能是因爲有太多無法訴說的事情吧
2015年，第一章
來臺也快半年了，在清大也過一個學期了，第一個寒假也開始了
這不短不長的5個月，發生太多事情
一下子，寫不出summary啊
想想，這段期間，自己應該有長大吧，智慧就不知道有沒有
一個人在外面，最艱難的就是想家、生病、心情不好什麽的，都不能讓家人知道
總是一個人扛，一個人忍。。。
這是我的習慣，我不知道這對不對，可我就是不想讓家人擔心，因爲他們實在過度關心我了
我都設法不讓他們知道，當然他們也是
當我發現家裏發生很多事的時候，自己又幫不上忙，又要裝鎮定不讓他們擔心，又找不到人訴苦時，我真的憋得很苦很苦很累很想哭，憋得快崩潰了
但是，我又會告訴自己長大了，的學會面對、承擔一切事物
要堅强，不可以那麽輕易倒下，不管有多難，不可以讓人看到脆弱的一面
found out this on 13th july 2016.
hmm...things changed. mind don't.
decided to post it out.......
已經停了那麽多年。。。
我想。。。可能是因爲有太多無法訴說的事情吧
2015年，第一章
來臺也快半年了，在清大也過一個學期了，第一個寒假也開始了
這不短不長的5個月，發生太多事情
一下子，寫不出summary啊
想想，這段期間，自己應該有長大吧，智慧就不知道有沒有
一個人在外面，最艱難的就是想家、生病、心情不好什麽的，都不能讓家人知道
總是一個人扛，一個人忍。。。
這是我的習慣，我不知道這對不對，可我就是不想讓家人擔心，因爲他們實在過度關心我了
我都設法不讓他們知道，當然他們也是
當我發現家裏發生很多事的時候，自己又幫不上忙，又要裝鎮定不讓他們擔心，又找不到人訴苦時，我真的憋得很苦很苦很累很想哭，憋得快崩潰了
但是，我又會告訴自己長大了，的學會面對、承擔一切事物
要堅强，不可以那麽輕易倒下，不管有多難，不可以讓人看到脆弱的一面
found out this on 13th july 2016.
hmm...things changed. mind don't.
decided to post it out.......
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